This is me, raw. I am a beast when it comes to my ability to allow everything to be stripped away and rebuilt from the ground up.
Although it happens over and over, the ‘big one’ hit in 2013/2014 when my world imploded. I was diagnosed with brain lesions, I’d left my 20+ year career after experiencing bullying that I simply couldn’t handle any longer and, within months, I was bankrupt, both literally and figuratively.
I was struggling to build a business that I had no idea how to create, had lost many friends, had no money and spent several hours a day feeling like I was literally not going to make it. It took me to my knees, with bouts of tears that would have me gasping for breath.
I prayed, begged, fell apart, got up, created, fell apart again and found my soul.
The Creator had a plan and whether I like it or not, it involved me coming apart at the seams. It caused me to re-assess every single thing in my life, from my relationships with people, to money, values, beliefs and health. For a while there, I truly wasn’t sure I’d make it to the other side alive.
But I did. Not only did I make it, I am here with an intense gratitude for having gone through ALL of it. Even in the darkest moments, miracles occurred. When I thought I had no way to handle the next months’ bills, an old debt was repaid, with interest. When I truly believed I was alone, new people showed up to guide me with such love it blows my mind. Through connections, I found my way to alternative healing methods that not only resulted in the clearing of the brain lesions but opened up a plethora of healing gifts that had been dormant within me since birth.
This is a part of my journey and I tell it so that you will know, you, beautiful soul, you will know that even if right now it seems hopeless, you are held. You are loved. You can make it through. There is a reason you are here and even if you don’t know what it is, the Creator does; Mother/Father God does. So in this moment, breathe and find something, anything, to remind you that you are not alone.
You and I, we are one and I love you.